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So the interview happened today. I still don't know what to think. He does need several references so I'm trying to get that together. From there, we can talk salary and whatnot...
It could be a telecommuting opportunity ( I asked since initially the salary won't be great ) so in that case, I wouldn't need to move to the Bay Area. I could still move to MO, live cheaper and focus most of my time on my things. He really just wants to pay someone to help him with publishing, things I do already. It could be a great way to make extra money while still focusing on what I love to do... Plus, he knows things and people I don't which could benefit me too. I could learn from him as well.
But there's no guarantees and I'm not even sure what'll come of it... But for now? References. I've got a few people in mind, but trying to think of who else would talk to him about working with me...
Oh and I wasn't able to get ahold of the EDD today (surprise, surprise). I'll be calling most of tomorrow, until I get through. I need to be paid after all....
I need to get back to comments and stuff, and I will as soon as I'm on a computer for any length of time... ( I'm on my phone right now).
A few updates as I wait on Kevin to get ready for bed...
1) I haven't been paid my unemployment benefits for three weeks out of the month. I don't know what's going on, but I'm not alone... I follow a website/message board and apparently many people haven't been getting paid for a few months now. Calling the EDD? Impossible. They keep telling you to call back later. So yeah... I'm just sitting here, wondering if I'll be able to pay my rent in January ( I have money for this month because I skipped paying my credit cards and other bills. Sad, huh? But rent has to come first). I'm beyond pissed off... And I'm tired of living like this, I really am.
2) That being said... I have a job interview on Monday. I'm NOT getting my hopes up because I know nothing about the company, what they pay, or what the hours would be... And it's located in the Bay Area so it would have to be really good to justify the move. It's in publishing so basically I'd be doing what I do now (which I love) for someone else too and getting a salary for it. There are possibilities of telecommuting and whatnot, I just know nothing... So not getting my hopes up. I won't move up North for a job that doesn't pay enough to survive. I want to be able to thrive, not barely get by.
3) And as of right now, we are still planning the move to Missouri early next year. We still don't know how we will pull it off... And honestly, it's so overwhelming that I wish we could stall it a few months (at least until our lease runs out here), but honestly... We can't afford to. If Congress doesn't extend the extensions, we will have no income on December 28th. And even if they do extend them, I run out sometime in January and Kevin's isn't enough to survive on... So what choice do we have really? I'll just be glad when we aren't in limbo anymore, and we know what's going on.
I'll be even happier when I can tell the EDD to fuck off. I can't wait to be free from their crappy ways. Countless people in CA are not getting benefits they're entitled to, some are being evicted, others going without food for the holidays... All because the EDD can't get their act together. The stress of worrying whether or not I'll get paid is ridiculous... I'm just lost in the shuffle... And I'm tired of it.
So I apologize if I seem distant, grumpy, bitter or cynical. I'm all the above plus sick and tired of everyone and everything. My patience is very thin and people piss me off on the internet daily (NOT my friends, don't worry).
I'm just... Ready for whatever comes next. And I really want to beat the crap out of stupid, ignorant people. But that's another entry for another time. Again, this isn't targeted at any friends of mine, it's mostly strangers who piss me off these days.
Thanks for listening. I am well, just a tad bit stressed. But overall, we will be okay.
First big announcement (more to come in the near future), my book of short stories was published at the end of October.
They messed with the wrong girl this time.
From heroes to villains, Femmes du Chaos sets out to show the world what the fairer sex is really made of. You’ll meet women of all ages and from many different walks of life... Warriors and schoolgirls, side-by-side in one place. One thing connects them all, and that is their ambition. Whether they use their ambition for good or evil, well that’s for them to decide. Gritty, fantastical and sometimes uncomfortable to read, Femmes du Chaos is a tour de force that holds nothing back. There will be violence and there will be blood.
Here are a few of the femmes you'll meet in this thrilling collection:
Sylvia: The bounty hunter with a dark past who is hellbent on revenge. When the justice system fails her, she sets out to correct their mistakes.
Layla: The ballerina who wants to be a star who's spent her life being overshadowed and under-appreciated. What happens when she stumbles across magic that makes her sister the star she's longed to be for so long? Let’s just say, you’ve never seen sibling rivalry like this before.
Mallory: A young girl who can see the future in her dreams. She’s saved lives in the past, and her dreams are warning her to not return to the world they all left behind. Faced with starvation, no one wants to believe her about the multitude of horrors that wait for them above. After all, monsters don’t exist... Or do they?
Some will survive and come out stronger in the end... And some will let the darkness consume them. After all, no two girls are ever alike.
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Available in paperback as well as for the Kindle and the Nook. You can also purchase through Smashwords. If you purchase a paperback through Amazon, you get the Kindle version for free.
Books can also be ordered directly through me for the same cost (and less money going to Amazon). I am happy to throw in a free ebook with the purchase of a paperback copy.
My First Review!
My first honest-to-goodness review of my writing from someone who isn't a friend of mine!
Rating - A+ and Beyond 5 Stars (her words, not mine)
"Holy cow this book hooked me! It hooked me and I read it in like 2 days, and I’m a major failure for taking so long to get this review up but it’s up now and I need to shout! I LOVE THIS COLLECTION!
These stories are so good, so different and so well written. Each one was a new adventure and when it ended, I was sad.. until I started the next one! I thought that this collection’s theme was so interesting and so twisted I couldn’t help but want to read it right away! I was not disappointed, not in the slightest! Each female was such a bad ass in her own right, dealing with people who were putting them down, but not every story had a HEA either. They are just stories, of females, trying to do the best they can, and being blocked each and every way!
The style of this collection is wonderful, and really shows how incredibly versatile Kristen Duvall is! She wrote each story, and doesn’t stick to the same style at all, but goes to all the right places for the stories. It pulls you in, each story, I was on the edge of my seat, trying to figure out what was going to happen, and some stories are downright creepy.
You need to read this collection, no questions."
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I'm awake and I shouldn't be. I should be asleep right now, but my brain won't stop thinking long enough to fall back asleep so I'm here, hoping typing stuff out puts me in the right mindset to sleep.
Nothing is wrong or anything, sometimes my brain just moves so fast, I can't keep up. That's all.
So what's going on with me? I've fallen into a mega antisocial state right now. Kevin too. We are just enjoying huddling away from people, hiding away together in our little cave together. Nothing bad is happening, people just get on our nerves right now. We have patience for each other and our animals, but otherwise that's it.
It's not from anything bad exactly... We are stressed. We have some BIG things happening within the next few months. Stuff we aren't talking openly about yet, but it's on the horizon and it takes up a lot of mental energy at the moment.
We found that this week has been all about eating all the junk food we can and sleeping later than we should. It's been nice to just slip on a few things while we sort the other stuff out. Things with us couldn't be better. All these things have brought us closer together.
I've noticed that I've changed a lot in the last year. I've grown so much. I'm more confident, less whiny and less insecure. I'm happy with myself. My emotional roller coaster is pretty boring now. I tend to be pretty content and care less about what other people think. I'm just doing my own thing and I'm far less moody than before. It's nice to not being so emotional and insecure. It's nice being confident and okay with myself. I'm not sure why it happened... A combination of therapy and growing up, I suppose. I know I've been emotionally immature my entire life. It's something I've struggled with for years. But in the last year, I've become calmer, less up and downs in my mood. Even stuff that should get to me doesn't bother me for long, if at all. Don't get me wrong... I still get depressed about things ( mainly our financial situation but that would depress most people, I think ), but I'm able to handle the situation in a way that's much calmer than before. And I'm still mostly content and happy, able to just go with the flow and keep reminding myself that things will work out. On top of it all, I'm writing and doing things I may not have had the courage to do before.
I'm rambling, I know. But it's working. I'm starting to feel sleepy again. Now if I can keep Kevin from snoring long enough for me to fall asleep... That might be a miracle :p
I'm back from the Bay Area. We got back on Sunday and have pretty much slept nonstop since then. I did have an interview at a temp agency on Monday and then grocery shopping, but besides that, I've been too tired to do much of anything. We drove all night on Saturday to get here early enough to pick Annabelle up. So yeah... I think being exhausted is understandable.
We stayed longer than we had originally planned. That was because M (the girl we were staying with) needed us more than we thought. We didn't see much other than the Berkeley Bowl (an awesome hippie grocery store) and the Oakland hospital (when M freaked out about her heart. She spent the night, but we were there late and had to be back early to pick her up).
M is in bad shape, mostly mentally. But that girl has been through so much. She's 24 and has had countless heart surgeries. She nearly died awhile back when her pace maker started shocking her (that has since been fixed, but she's paranoid it'll happen again and I can't say that I blame her). She has serious anxiety and we couldn't leave her alone at all and she felt too bad to go out and about. But that's what we were paid to do.... Her mom (Kevin's friend and pretty much his adopted mom) paid for everything. This trip was completely free for us. She even paid to board Annabelle. Which that was so generous.... And honestly, I had fun still.
M was great fun. We are like sisters separated at birth. We both have a sick sense of humor and poor Kevin would just shake his head or go "wow" as an and I went back and forth, trying to out offend the other. We also played games and Cards Against Humanity is a blast with people who truly appreciate my sick sense of humor.
When S, Kevin's friend, came home, we had some freedom. But since she paid for the entire trip and Kevin hadn't seen her in years, we hung out with her.
We did get out to San Francisco on Thursday and had a blast. I walked the Golden Gate Bridge, we took photos, walked the city, are great food. There were sea lions on the pier and we watched them for some time. There were turf wars going on amongst them and I thought I'd caught it on video, but I think my phone was being an ass so who knows?
We are a lot of good food... Great Mexican, Chinese, seafood, ice cream and Indian. We've not had much Indian food, but it was so good and now I'm totally craving it like mad. I had a vegetarian masala and it was possibly one of the best things I've eaten in a long time. So yummy. We cooked at the house most of the time though.
We had a lot of fun... And we laughed a lot. Like when Kevin totally started undressing in front of M without thinking (just unbuttoning his shirt, but still...), when he stole part of my fortune cookie and I jokingly yelled at him and then he followed it up by taking the other half a minute later. It wasn't intentional and the look of shock on his face when I grabbed it back... I'll never forget it. He also pulled an illegal turn and totally jumped the curb in the car. We were just sitting there for a few moments before he turned to me and said "we hit the curb". I died laughing. I couldn't help it.
So yeah, a lot of fun was had and now it's back to normal. Though we have expanded our job search to the Bay Area. I loved his friends and we just hit it off... I'd love to live closer to them. Not to mention the wonderful transit and everything. I had a few good leads on wonderful paying jobs that would allow us to afford to live there and still be a lot better off than we are now.
So I guess we will see what happens :)
So we didn't get picked to go on stage, but you will see us on TV on December 26th. We were tucked away in a corner at first, but they moved just Kevin and I closer to the center, near the large TV that shows the trips and whatnot. We saw ourselves on TV, so if you look hard enough, you can probably find us. Back row, right next to the big TV.
It was so much fun, I already want to go again (and we promised Kevin's sister we would go with them sometime). The waiting before hand really wasn't so bad. Everyone was really nice, the pages helping out were funny. You get shuffled around enough that it goes by fast.
They did Plinko, which I know everyone loves . The guy won a lot of money, more than I usually see on Plinko. I was right a lot on pricing and even Kevin was screaming prices to the people on stage. He got really into it, it was cute.
The taking went by fast too. And everything is so much smaller than you'd think it would be. The colors look different in real life, so does the stage and everything. Drew made some small talk and jokes (we also saw him park his Vespa and go inside). Mostly, he kept running off stage and the announcer guy did most if the entertaining. That and the guy who encourages you to cheer and who holds up the cards with the people's names on them.
All in all, it was fun even if we didn't get picked. We paid way too much for a burger and fries, and twice as much for parking. But it was fun and I know what to expect when we go back with his sister in a month or two :)
I'll write up more details later. Right now, I want to fwunp. We only slept for about 4 hours last night and I'm exhausted. We couldn't take photos and we left our phones in the car because it was either that or check them (and checking them in means waiting in a long line to check them out. See? I was prepared, I researched a bit to avoid stuff like that).
Anyway... Fwump time. Thanks for all the good thoughts!
So it looks like we are for sure going to The Price is Right tomorrow! We've been gone all day today with shopping and a late doctor's appointment (check up on the IUD).
We still have to make the shirts... We have tshirts, fabric paint and stencils. This could be interesting as we aren't very crafty.
So send some luck our way! It would be amazing to win something big that we can sell and maybe pay some bills with it. Or a trip to Europe would be nice. Or a computer that I could really use...
This could be awesome. Send us good vibes tomorrow!
I just applied for my dream job. Seriously, guys... Send the good vibes, prayers, whatever you have. I need to land this interview!
If all goes well, Kevin and I are going to a taping of the Price is Right on Wednesday! My cheesy childhood dream may come true. You see, I was the kid who loved sick days and summer because I could sit at home and watch the show with my grandparents, and after their death, my mom or even alone. I swore I'd be on the show one day, and while there's no guarantee of getting on... I'll at least be there. And who knows? My birthday is coming up, so we will write something cheesy about that on a shirt and act like lunatics. Because its perfectly acceptable to look stupid on national television and that's something I'm good at anyway.
If you're in So Cal and want to join us, having a group of people is always a good thing. Let me know if you want to act stupid, be goofy and entertain some old people (and those geeks like me who watch because of a shitty economy).
Yes, I know about taxes and whatnot. No, I don't really think I'll win... It will be fun just to go.